Trust me, please.

Trust is the most important thing in any relationship, in my opinion. Now, I know it can be hard to take someone's word and believe them when it seems like they don't know what they're talking about. Ever think that maybe they do have a clue? That they actually do know what they're talking about? Ever think that maybe since that person has already gone through it, they understand?

Why is it so hard to just take my word for it? I'm promising you that it'll be worth your time to listen to me...

Why are we so blind? Our pride blinds us to the point that we can't hear either. 

I just want to scream in your face, "STAY AWAY! Please, just trust me on this one. I know what I'm talking about. You're going to want to stay far away." But my words aren't enough.

We can't hear because we always think we know best. We think that we can take care of ourselves. Sometimes we're wrong.

After all of the times I was hurt? After all of the times I cried until I couldn't breathe? You still don't believe me?

Sometimes, it's easier for us to believe lies than it is to believe the truth. "The truth hurts." It's true...Kind of goes back to the "Sometimes we're wrong." thing.

I'm not the only one trying to convince you. Carrie Underwood knows what she's talking about. "He gives you feelings that you don’t want to fight. You better run for your life...And you wanna believe, but you won’t be deceived if you listen to me and take my advice...Run, run away, don’t let him mess with your mind. He’ll tell you anything you want to hear. He’ll break your heart; it’s just a matter of time."

Why can't we just listen to our friends and family when they say "It's a bad idea." or "I wouldn't if I were you..."? It's their nice way of saying "DON'T!"

I understand. I understand. I understand. And in case you still don't believe me, I understand. I had a gut feeling, and I didn't listen. If I couldn't even listen to myself, how could I listen to anyone else? I understand.

But we think our situation is different. He's different. And we get mad when everyone is telling us to stay away. We don't want to hear it. He's changed. He's different this time. Is he?

I knew I was taking a chance. I knew that I could get hurt. But I didn't care. Everyone was nice about it...but I could tell they knew I was wrong. I knew I was wrong, deep down. 

We want to believe that we're the exception, like in "He's Just Not That Into You". We convince ourselves by saying stuff like, "He promised me forever". But how many girls has he promised that to?

I was selfish. I am selfish. I want what I want, when I want it. I loved him, but it was a selfish love, a self-serving love. It was messed up and twisted. I was wrong and God has changed me in more ways than one. He deserves my love, because He loves me with a perfect, irreversible, never-ending love, a love that I don't deserve. 

He convinced me. He was good at it, too. I believed him. But actions speak louder than words. I guess he forgot about that...

I am changed, because of Him.

He hasn't changed.